short and true

If only we all understood that God truly is good.

When God hands you God

The day that:

I finally realized You were who my parents always said You were.

I let go of culture, my sense of right and wrong, and the loop holes to my sense of right and wrong.

I surrendered.

I took my first real breath.

On that day, everything I ever knew was smashed to pieces, and I began to rebuild myself with You in the center.

It never made sense, but I never felt this sure about anything before that day.

little secrets

who is the desperate man at my side?

I have to remember the sparkle in me

doesn't make me GOLD

but this cold bath feels more real

than the ocean ever could

The whole world is diamonds

Teach me what it's like

to sleep outside

there are beasts

that envy my fangs

I was so wicked once

The whole world is diamonds

It's all just memories

of the last time you felt

the leaves on your face

you were once the bravest man

but look how your life shakes in your hand

The whole world is diamonds

just take a look at it.

No matter what they tell me, it's not just a brain and it's not just a heart.

my RED RED RED ____

Every fault I find

are mine

I found them in you

buried deep

beneath all the good

that you keep

when I see them in you

I prod them

I stick them to you

and you will never be free

but every sin I latch to you

I latch to me

Was I born to break them down?

Or is my heart exactly where it should be?

p.s. I have given up on proper poetry. I no longer feel the need to fit my feelings into guidelines that only govern but do not enhance.

Oh please.

Turns out you weren't made of stones.

Every moment that I thought you were there,

you were somewhere else.

I'll never forget what you did for this family,

nor will I forget what you did to it.

You have shattered my world and now I must look

to someone else for strength.

God, You must be everything. Immortals can't bleed.

Stand strong where I could not. Please stand strong.

when we get there

When we get there

I know I will smile

The final destination

To know that there is no more

no more running around

no more planning

just loving and laughing

When we get there

I will dance to a song

with deep basses that beat my heart

with trumpets that move me

with strings that vibrate my bones

with pipes that bring me to my knees

with a never ending crescendo

When we get there

I will finally be happy.

The thought of never having to worry about anything ever again is more than I can bare.

I will always love this planet but my heart does not belong here.

to lil wayne

dear lil wayne,

Firstly I would like to start by saying you are a scary human being. I'm not comfortable about my generation as a whole because of your overall success and your overall creepiness.

Also I would like to say I am quite ready for you to fade away. I'm tired of hearing your auto-tuned voice on every single song that exists.

Aren't you supposed to be in jail? You had like a ton of illegal guns and silencers in your possession. I never thought I would be ready for a human to go to jail, but you bring out the worst in me.

JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND TAKE LADY GAGA WITH YOU.

since eerily

Josh